I would really like to use today, some Xanax a couple or 4 painkillers. Maybe it would help me knock off this funk? Most likely it would just make me not care about the funk. It's been 90 days and I haven't had a hard day until now. I just want to be in that slow relaxed overly cushioned place.
So damn bad for you but oh so good.
I can't even begin at this point to tell you the horrors I went through kicking this stuff. Things I didn't think the mind could do.
That just makes me doubly crazy about sitting here wanting to take more.